Explanations

Hello lovelies!

How is everyone doing? I've had some issues going on over the past few months now. At first it started out with aching in my low back, which is normal for me because I have scoliosis. I thought it was just acting up, but I was wrong. I was able to go to work still, so I thought if I push through it like I normally do, it will heal on its own. As time went on, I ended up getting worse. I was terrified to go to the doctor. I get severe anxiety when I have to go to the doctor. I kept putting it off until the pain became unbearable. We thought it was my sciatic nerve, so my doctor set up physical therapy. I thought that would help if I could get there. My legs became weak next. I was unable to walk without assistance from the things around me. I was only able to go to the restroom and then back to bed. It got to the point where I could barely make it to the restroom because my legs didn't want to work. 

Then came the pain. It was ten, twenty times worse than it had been. My husband had to call an ambulance for me a couple weeks ago. Maybe three weeks ago now. They didn't do anything but pump me full of pain medications. They helped, but only for a few minutes of relief at a time. I ended up leaving the hospital that day in excruciating pain. I've had a few falls because of it as well. I fell on the floor when I got home one day because my legs seized up on me. The day for my physical therapy appointment showed up. I was ready to start getting some relief. When my aunt got here to take me, my husband was helping me down the stairs. I got my right foot on the top step and when I went to move my left foot, I ended up falling down all the steps, so basically, I fell off the porch. 

A week later, my mom came up from Florida. She leaves Sunday, well tomorrow by now since it's technically Saturday. I know she has her own life in Florida, but I want to be selfish and have her stay. It gives me someone here at home. My husband works overnights, so I'm alone from 5pm to almost 6am. Anyways, I had a doctor appointment on Monday. My doctor sent me to the emergency room right away because of how fast I was deteriorating. We were in the emergency room for over 10 hours! They did an MRI of my entire back. I found out that I have several pinched nerves. A few of which are close to my spinal cord. I have severe arthritis in my back. To top it off, I have bulging disks! My back is a mess. 

I'm slowly getting up and moving around with the medication they gave me, but it's still painful at times. I have to use a walker to get around my home. I haven't been able to leave my house because I can't make it down the porch. In order to get to the doctor, I've had to crawl into the back of our vehicle. That is just embarrassing to me. I'm a 28-year-old woman who has to use a walker to get around, and crawl places. I'm waiting to hear from the neurosurgeon for my appointment so I can figure out what the next step will be. I know it's going to be surgery, but that's scary of and in itself. However, with God by my side, I can face anything. 

XOXO

Riki B.